Yeah, I am mostly sedentary, except that I cycle 40 miles a week. I used to dance a lot too, three evenings a week and most weekends, but as that was a social thing I haven't been able to do that over the past year. For me the fear is not so much being fat as the fear that I will never stop growing fatter until I can't move any more, because if I have an upper limit on how much I'll weigh, I haven't found it yet. I just keep going up and up and never level off anywhere.
This time, thanks to therapy and not restricting myself (and therefore not binging) my eating seems to have stabilized, but my weight gain has been sudden, dramatic and ongoing. If it levels off anywhere, even if that place is at chubby, I will be happy.
(The intuitive eating books tell me that this is how it goes - you go up to the top of your weight range and then slowly come back down to settle somewhere in the middle. So I have some hope that that's what will happen to me too. But the process is pretty horrifying.)
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Date: 2021-04-01 10:06 am (UTC)From:This time, thanks to therapy and not restricting myself (and therefore not binging) my eating seems to have stabilized, but my weight gain has been sudden, dramatic and ongoing. If it levels off anywhere, even if that place is at chubby, I will be happy.
(The intuitive eating books tell me that this is how it goes - you go up to the top of your weight range and then slowly come back down to settle somewhere in the middle. So I have some hope that that's what will happen to me too. But the process is pretty horrifying.)