galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)

I really like Markdown as a way to do what I used to use html for, but it does mean I can't use the old system where you used an asterisk around a phrase to show that you were performing that action. The old asterisk Sigh asterisk thing, meaning that you were sighing in real life. But now it just makes the word 'sigh' italicized. Which is great in theory, but I miss being able to type star g star and have it mean 'I'm grinning.'

Anyway ^sigh^ time to go and put out the quilt cover I had washed and dried, only to discover it had a muddy footprint on it because I must have accidentally stepped on it while wrestling it off the line yesterday - so I had to wash it again.

This time I will try hard to keep it off the ground throughout!

galadhir: Lt. Gillette restrains Commodore Norrington from jumping off a cliff into the sea. Text says 'Don't jump, wait until they push you.' Both a comment on later movies and a life lesson. (Don't jump (wait until they push you))

After much fretting about whether I'd get to the hospital in time, I arrived at precisely the time of my appointment. Then over the course of about two hours had a mammogram, doctor's exam and ultrasound, and they decided that it was a sebaceous cyst - and was perfectly harmless unless it got infected. As it was already getting smaller, this didn't seem likely.

However, it seems that I was not as un-worried about the whole thing as I thought I was. Even before I got home, the deep, lancing fibro pains had started up, and by the time I got home it was the full works: jabbing pains everywhere, back locked up, feeling sick, dizziness, fatigue etc.

I can only assume that this was my body dealing with suddenly not being stressed any more. As a stress reaction, I do not like it.

DH is off at the Halesworth day of dance. Son has borrowed one of our cars because his new car is in the garage, so I do not have a car available. I had planned to cycle into town, do some weight lifting, toddle around the shops, maybe have lunch in a nice little place as a treat, but while I am fatigued, dizzy and in pain I don't know that that's going to be possible.

Basically everything is terrible. I'm going to the garden to eat worms. But I don't have cancer, so that's something :)

galadhir: Against a backdrop of green leaves and gold sparkles the text "Tell us now the full tale" is written. Both a Celeborn quote and a request to know more (Tell us now the full tale)

90 discussion questions

What is a topic you could stand up and talk passionately about for five minutes?

Any number of fandom opinions:

  • Why we shouldn't overlook Celeborn of Lorien when we talk about Galadriel, and why everybody still does.
  • Why Colonel Young from Stargate SGU is actually the right man for the job even though he himself doesn't think so.
  • Why some people love the villains in media and why it doesn't make them villains themselves.

A few non-fannish subjects:

  • The history and typology of morris dancing - I regularly do give a talk about this.
  • The history of Roses and Castles painting and how to do it yourself - I have taught a class on this too.
  • Anglo-Saxon clothing and how to construct it - I might be a bit rusty on this one if I was asked to go into depth but I can easily fill 5 minutes.
galadhir: a lovely tribal dancer in dark green choli and a red moroccan style belt with orange and yellow pom poms (tribal belly dancer)

90 discussion questions. 1. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go and why?

There are so many places! If I'm imagining myself being as physically limited as I am now - whereby I find walking difficult for more than about half an hour at best - then a cruise might be best.

I would like to cruise up the Danube and see the painted churches of Romania. But then again I would also like to cruise down the Nile and see Luxor. I could take a few lessons with Egyptian Raqs Sharqi teachers and get a new outfit while I was there.

If, on this imaginary trip, I'm also imagining myself as physically fit again, I'd like to go to Mexico and see what remains of Tenochtitlan, the Aztec capital. Or perhaps to Peru to visit Machu Picchu

Alternatively, my son would like to go to Japan, so perhaps I would use my imaginary trip to take him there.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)

It's approximately two weeks since we had the heat pump put in, and I know I promised an update on how it is going :)

I thought it would be a bit colder, but it's not. We have been so toasty that we had to set the thermostat down a degree.

I was also worried that there might not be enough hot water in the tank that DH could have a shower in the morning and I could have a bath in the evening. Probably - I thought - we'd have to boost the hot water with the supplementary immersion heater if we wanted a bath full of hot water in the evening.

But no, the hot water is actually hotter with the heat pump than it was with the boiler, and the tank is hot enough throughout the day that there is enough left in the evening to run a pre-bedtime bath and more.

The cost of running it seems to be about equal to the cost of both electricity and gas that we used for heating the house, which DH seemed to think was good, although not as spectacular a saving as I expected. Still, it means that we are no longer dependent on oil as a household, and that is a step toward a less fossil-fuel based world, while not being worse for us in any way.

galadhir: a small, cheeky green pixie against a gold background (galadhir pixie)

Well, found a lump at about 4am this morning and lay awake until 7am when I could get up. Then I phoned 111. They said they could help me get antibiotics if it looked like it was an infection and thus mastitis, but if I was worried about cancer that required a GP referral, so they couldn't do anything except encourage me to talk to the GP on Monday.

With that on my mind DH and I went to help Son plant some trees at his nature reserve. (I say 'his' because he is on the committee that helps run it.) Planted a bunch of hawthorn, dog rose and dogwood plug plants, each with its own supporting stick, and a plastic deer protector around it. The sun was bright and warm, though the wind was cold, and the birds were singing in the hedges. So after that I felt a lot better and decided not to bother worrying about it, because worrying doesn't help.

DH is now serving behind the bar at the church beer festival. I am looking forward to lunch tomorrow, when we are meeting up with Son, Daughter and Son-in-Law for lunch in honour of Mothering Sunday. Lunch out will probably muck up my diet for this week, but whatever. I'll have a salad and a mint tea, and that will have to do.

galadhir: a green welly and a watering can amid flowers (gardening)

5. How many local birds can you name?

  • Robin
  • Blue tit
  • Great tit
  • Crows
  • Rooks
  • Jackdaws
  • Magpies
  • Pigeon
  • Wood dove
  • Collared dove
  • Blackbird
  • Starling
  • Wren
  • Red kite (a kind of hawk)
  • Buzzard

A tiny little wren lives in our garden and scurries around our fences. He is my favourite. But the family of blackbirds, and the robin who comes down to greet me when I go out are also my favourites. The rest of them are passing through, but the wren, robin and blackbirds live here with me.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Totoro)

On very bad news: my belly dance teacher, Elizabeth, popped over to the Middle East to get some dancing in during the half term holiday, and she is now trapped there thanks to the war. We suggested she find the embassy and let them know she's there but that's all we've heard, so none of us know what's happening beyond that. Some prayers for her safety would not come amiss if anyone reading this has a prayer list :(

On slightly better news, DH and I are having a heat pump put in, to run our central heating, instead of the gas boiler we previously had. And when I say 'we're having a heat pump put in' I mean right now. One engineer is outside drilling something. One is putting sticky back plastic over our carpets to protect them, prior to checking which radiators need to be replaced.

(Apparently we need larger radiators because the water coming from the heat pump will be at a lower temperature than that coming from a boiler, so we'll need a larger surface area of radiator to provide equivalent heating.)

We were keen to get a heat pump because we are with an electricity provider who get all their electricity from renewables (mostly wind farms around here.) That way, once we swap our gas hob for an electric one, we will be freed from fossil fuel use except for the cars. (They're on the plan too, but second hand electric cars are not yet as available as we need, and who can afford a new car?)

I'm very impressed with our electricity people so far (Octopus Electric.) They said they'd be here by 8am and they were here at 8.10am. (In contrast to the scaffolding people who said they'd be here yesterday and never turned up at all.)

They're putting protectors on our carpeting where they intend to walk. They say it will take them three days to install the heat pump system, but we'll only have one day without heating. And they have given us three fan heaters to keep us warm on that one day, and told us we can keep them afterward.

It'll be hard to go back to a system where you have to heat up the hot water tank in order to have hot water, (rather than the current system where the boiler heats the water on demand.) But we're doing our bit for the planet, so that will have to be the consolation :)

galadhir: a lovely tribal dancer in dark green choli and a red moroccan style belt with orange and yellow pom poms (tribal belly dancer)

Ill today and have been since Thursday. I suspect this means I won't be making bellydance tomorrow, as I'm too tired and dizzy to stand up for more than 10 minutes. And that will mean potentially having to pull out of doing the veil dance at the hafla for lack of practice time. (It's at the end of April but there are only 3 classes left to practice it in and Louise hasn't even written the end yet.)

Hopefully

  1. I'll be better by this Thursday and
  2. Someone will have taken a video that we can all use for practice once the term ends.
galadhir: a pale beautiful face in an elaborate icy blue head-dress, and a white fur collar (ice queen)

When you leave your home, what essentials do you have with you?

It's one big thing - my bag. My bag contains:

  1. Car keys
  2. House keys
  3. Mobility scooter keys
  4. Phone
  5. Hand gel
  6. CBD oil
  7. Pack of paper handkerchiefs
  8. Noise dampening loops
  9. Wallet
  10. Pen
  11. Notebook
  12. Hair-tie
  13. Chapstick
  14. Three of those silky reusable carrier bags that fold down small
  15. Pill box with painkillers that need to be taken three times a day
  16. Bottle of Lactase tablets - in case I'm going to be eating anything containing lactose
  17. Sheet of Mebeverine tablets - in case the lactase doesn't work or I eat something else that doesn't agree with me. (I have IBS, this happens a lot.)

This is after I reduced the size of my bag and deliberately pared down the contents to essentials because my previous bag was hurting my shoulders.

I don't want to have to think about what I might need every time I go out, so I try to have everything I might need all the time.

galadhir: Colonel Young from Stargate SGU against a dark background, face lit by a golden beam of light (Young)

Challenge 4:

Make a Top Ten list for your favourite relationships in media and tell everyone what you love about them. This covers all kinds of relationships - romantic, sexual, platonic, professional, rivals, acrimonious, family, found family, something else not mentioned here. So, bring out your friends, lovers or enemies, whether canon or fanon. If it involves two or more people interacting in some way, it counts, so go wild!

  1. The first one that comes to mind is Rush and Young from Stargate Universe. One of the joys of SG1 is the relationship between Jack and Daniel (the military leader and the scientist,) and SGU posits 'what if this central and vital relationship was instead between two people who couldn't trust or rely on each other at all? Wouldn't that be fun?' And yes, yes it was. The show does a fantastic job at making the audience nearly... so nearly throw our sympathies completely behind one of them, only to pull the rug out from under us and start feeling that maybe the other one is right after all. I love it.

  2. In one of those love triangles that are completely calling out for polyamory, I love the relationship between Roy Kent, Jamie Tartt and Keeley Jones on Ted Lasso. Roy and Jamie go from being mortal enemies to best friends, while Keeley goes from going out with Jamie to going out with Roy, to going out with neither of them but also being in the best friend triad. Seriously, they should all date each other.

  3. Lan XiChen and Jin GuangYao from The Untamed. My goodness, talk about love at first sight! And then JGY saves LXC's life and nurses him back to health and wins the war for him and makes sure he has enough help to rebuild his sacked sect... and then the guy who broke his little brother's heart tells him that JGY is evil? Does not compute. To me the special thing about LXC is that you can see how he would have given JGY a fair hearing even after everything came to light, had he not been tricked into acting rashly. Those Lans do love well, even if not always wisely.

  4. I should say 'the relationship between Celeborn and Galadriel' because I have written about it a lot. The thing about it is that I had to think about it a lot if I wanted to write Celeborn at all, because it's a huge deal for him. I personally don't really care about it, except in the sense that I care about him. I think it says good things about him, though, that he's at least not the sort of insecure, weak minded little man who is intimidated by a strong woman. So I tend to write him as having the kind of self-assurance that is indistinguishable from humility - he doesn't need to prove anything to anybody.

  5. Qui-Gon Jinn + the Jedi Council. This is another case of what I think of as humility, and many other people see as inflexible stubbornness and pride. I see Qui-Gon as someone who follows the will of the Force wherever he thinks it guides him. Given that the Jedi are called a religion, I think this can be seen as having a strong faith and therefore praiseworthy, even if it means that some people blame him for unleashing Vader on the universe. An interesting case study on how an established religion tries to contain one of their troublesome saints.

  6. Loki + the gods/the Avengers/basically everyone. Like most queer kids I felt an immediate kinship with Loki the mythological figure, who was outcast and blamed for everything, even things he clearly hadn't done. Initially therefore I was very keen to get him forgiven and accepted into a less judgemental group. However, as time went on I started to appreciate why a group might have problems with a character who can't see a boundary without wanting to cross it. Now I'm like 'I still hope he gets redeemed but I think it's going to take someone a lot stronger than me to handle it.'

  7. Khan/Joachim (from Star Trek, the Wrath of Khan) and Ra/Anubis (Stargate the movie.) Possibly even Jin GuangYao/Su MinShan. I'm putting these together because I do love the homoerotic tension of a villain with his chief henchman who is slavishly devoted to him. Not much else to say, just... the love! From terrible people to terrible people! There's something really poignant about it.

  8. General Hux + his father. Hux's father was a child brainwasher who invented the brainwashing techniques that were done on First Order troopers. And he hated his son, while Hux both returned that hatred but also secretly yearned for his father's approval. How much was Hux brainwashed by his father too? No one knows. A toxic relationship but very interesting if you're trying to assign blame to Hux for being such a piece of shit. How much is he responsible for what he is? Can he be saved or is he too far gone? These are the questions the very tiny Hux fandom is asking itself.

  9. Colonel Young + David Telford from SGU. What the heck is going on there? These two are apparently the best of friends while Telford is doing his level best to sabotage Young at nearly every occasion. Things get better after Telford is discovered to be brainwashed and working for the baddies, but he still tries to blow up an allied civilian planet at one point. And yet Young forgives him again and again, even for breaking up his (failing) marriage and making a move on his wife. I think 'what the heck is going on there?' sums it up entirely.

  10. Jack/Ianto. I almost forgot this one but I was so obsessed with it at the time. What a trailblazer of a TV relationship it was! You know, Ianto's shrine is still there in Cardiff. People still visit and bring flowers. I thought Ianto was a very interesting character - he is probably the original of the fandom ghost, that sharply dressed but surprisingly lethal twink that turns up in every fandom given time. Or maybe he just hit that archetype by accident. Jack was less interesting imo, but also a trailblazer for his time.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)

I have just joined Bluesky, but it does seem to be very worthy and very focused on the big issues of real life, so I don't know how long I'll last over there.

I'm doing it again already, spreading myself too thin. That's it now. No other sites of social media allowed. I already know I can't keep up with one, let alone two. (Or three, in fact, since my non-writing real life friends and activities are all on Facebook.)

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)

As the title says, The Boat of Small Mysteries is out today :)

BoSM cover art

You can get it on Amazon here, or everywhere else (Kobo, Barnes & Noble, Apple etc) over here.

~

When a new disability ruins Emily’s life and family turns her out, she finds herself forced into a nomadic life on a narrowboat. With very little money and even less physical stamina, she doesn’t know if she has it in her to forge a whole new future on her own.

In the idyllic surroundings of the British waterways, as she moves from place to place she encounters a series of small mysteries. Can she solve them and find a new purpose for herself in the process? Or must a missing person remain lost and the case of the body in the lock remain unsolved?

Half cozy mystery and half fond ode to the narrowboat life, ‘The Boat of Small Mysteries,’ is a charming tale of resilience and intuition, sure to appeal to anyone who enjoys BBC Four’s Canal Boat Diaries, or the gentle adventures of Alexander McCall Smith’s The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency books.

~

Currently it's out in ebook only. The paperback is in the works but I am waiting for the proof copy to arrive so that I can check that it's ok before I release it.

It's also currently at 0.99c as an early bird discount, but it will be going up from that probably on the first of March - to the heady heights of $2.99

First book in seven years! I am sick with nerves over how it will go. There's a lot to be said for a few years of rest--it's all new to me again.

galadhir: a green welly and a watering can amid flowers (gardening)

Plateaued on the diet, mainly because I gave blood on Thursday and just ate everything in the house that evening because I felt wobbly and in need of food. I imagine that not being able to go out cycling because of rain/because I was banned from heavy exercise by the blood transfusion service also contributed.

Cycling is not looking good this week either as it continues to rain. I'll have to do the exercises attached to the diet instead, and at least I can pick the weightlifting back up, although it doesn't help that I am going to give evidence in my son's autism assessment on Wednesday - which is normally a weightlifting day. I guess that means this week weightlifting is Tuesday and Friday instead.

Life gets in the way of all our goals, and this is normal. Just have to do my best and hope it is better than nothing.

I have at least replanted the baby apricot tree out of the pot it was in and into the raised bed where it will have a chance to stretch its roots and grow a bit better.

Now to go and get the shopping for the week, come back and clean the kitchen, make lunch (and dinner?), then hopefully there will be time to edit another chapter on the narrowboat novel before it's time to eat the dinner and go to belly dance class.

galadhir: a pale beautiful face in an elaborate icy blue head-dress, and a white fur collar (ice queen)
It occurs to me this morning that I no longer have any social media. No one I used to talk to on Tumblr is still active on Tumblr, so all I use it for now is to reblog things. As the people I follow fall for new media that I haven't seen, the feed becomes more and more incomprehensible, and I feel very isolated.

I also feel like we tried a lot of things and we found out that the old ways are better. You know? Streaming was great but then suddenly we didn't own anything, so it's good to go back to buying DVDs. 'Social media' was great but then suddenly we didn't know anyone, so it's good to go back to a platform where you can actually speak to people.

Anyway, this is me feeling like I really want my Dreamwidth again because there are things here I can't do elsewhere, like *journal* and *talk to people.*

Exciting news for today is that it snowed overnight. Only a light powdering of icing-sugar snow, but that's remarkable enough for this far south in England in these days of climate change.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Drake Front)
Well, the good news is that it wasn't a very long slump, but the bad news is that this is how long it's taken me to fall off the writing wagon and to no longer be working on my novel. I'm still writing, but I'm back on fanfic, doing a time-travel fix-it fic for Jin Guangyao.

[Guanyin's Gift](https://archiveofourown.org/works/53696275)
With Jin Guangyao the main difficulty is to find a time in which he has any good choices available to him at all. So I had to go very far back *and* allow him to keep his adult memories and skillset.

I'm now belly dancing twice a week, which is lots of fun and has given me a new lease of life. But I continued to be frustrated that you could not get a nice coin belt of the right size for a plus size person, so I've started making them.



This is great for me, because I now have multiple belts that fit me and are interesting and unique. And I would like to make them available to other fat dancers who are presumably all also facing the same problem. But I can't make them as cheaply as the scarves that straight-sized people can buy on the internet for £3.99. £3.99 would not cover even the least amount of braid that goes on one of these, let alone the material.

I can't imagine selling them for less than £15 just to pay for the material and trimmings, and then who's going to pay for that?

On boat news, Son is coming to the end of his mooring in Northampton and is thinking of moving the boat up to Nottingham, where he has a small community of friends. So I imagine we'll be spending at least some time in late spring on the boat - getting him up the 12 locks of the staircase onto the Northampton arm of the canals, if nothing else. Expect more breakdowns, panicking and repairs to follow :)

Boat stress

Jan. 6th, 2024 10:16 pm
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Drake Front)

They say 'be careful what you wish for' and I should have known better than to make a goal to learn to hope. How do you learn to hope? You get put in many situations where you have to practice hope...

Friday, I was peacefully going through my morning routine when DH texts the family group chat to ask if Son is okay, what with the flood warning.

  • Son is like 'oh heck! I'm not actually at the boat. Would I lose the boat in a flood? Should I buy enough food to survive if I'm marooned on the boat and go and be on it?'
  • I'm like, 'no, you shouldn't! You should stay somewhere where you'll be safe.'
  • DH is like, 'maybe you should! If you were on the boat, you could lengthen the ropes if the floating pontoon reached the top of its range, and at least it wouldn't risk tipping sideways and filling with water and sinking.'
  • Son and I are like 'Yeah, but what if it's swept out of the marina onto the river and Son ends up unable to find anywhere to moor up and can't sleep because he has to be on the tiller or the boat sinks with him on it? We don't fancy that!'
  • And I'm like 'well, I suppose you do also have an anchor. You could drop the anchor to keep you in the marina until it subsided again.'

So eventually it was decided that Son would go back to the boat on Friday night. The flood warning said the water would be at the highest on Saturday, and should go down after that, and we decided to hope that the floating pontoons would take the high water in their stride.*

That was an intensive day of active hope, but it did indeed turn out that (so far) the pontoons are coping.

DH and I went over there today to add clips to the solar panel boxes to prevent the solar panels from being blown off again, and Son was like 'Ugh, this door lock is getting stiff.' But we got the solar panels latched down, and the final window covered in window film, and came home.

Then at 10pm when we're sitting watching TV at home, Son texts to say 'I've just arrived back from work and I'm locked out. I can't get this door lock open at all.'

Further panic - we're nearly two hours drive away and we don't have a replacement door lock. Now what?

DH orders a new door lock from Screwfix. Then Son texts back to say 'I bought some WD-40 and sprayed it and now I'm in!'

So now we're going back tomorrow to put a new door lock on.

I know I had the temerity to think there would be less boat work this year, but that was before I remembered that there was still this list of things to do:

  • Take the wall panels off the inside (possibly one room at a time)
  • See how terribly rusty it is behind them, and sand the rust back to bare metal
  • Paint the inside hull with rust resistant paint
  • Add insulation
  • Put the panels back on.
  • Disassemble the current bed and underbed storage, and somehow get it - and the mattress - out of the cabin. Son prefers his sofa-bed in the warm sitting room by the stove, and the bed is taking up so much room. He could use that room as an office if it was gone.
  • Cut inspection hole in the floor, so the bilges can be pumped out with a hand pump.
  • Do something to stop the front window wooden surround from rotting
  • Get the hull re-blacked below the gunwales
  • Somehow plug the holes in the doors/hatch arrangement which currently allow rain into the engine room
  • Get an engineer out to fix the engine idle rate and check the engine mountings
  • Put a better hatch/door lock on.

It will be years before this is all done!

*Son's friend also has a boat, moored in a marina closer to London, and they received an evacuation warning. So that confirms my initial thought that the correct thing to do - if your boat is in the way of an oncoming flood - is to leave it and go somewhere safer. Next time we will know :)

galadhir: a lovely tribal dancer in dark green choli and a red moroccan style belt with orange and yellow pom poms (tribal belly dancer)

My most important goals for 2023 were to paint Son's boat (and thus reassure myself that it wasn't in imminent danger of falling apart due to rust) and to see him settled with some kind of job with which he could support his immediate needs.

Both of those were achieved. We stripped and painted the boat over the summer, and in doing so discovered that the rust was largely superficial and the structure of the boat was sounder than I had feared.

We also stripped and painted the fresh water tank, which had been so full of rust I was worried that it was going to rust through at any moment and flood the bilges. And it turned out that it too was sounder than I had feared. It will have to be done again every year for several years running to fully eliminate the rust, but the boatyard men were not concerned about it, and as long as we keep on top of it, it should be fine.

Son is now installed in permanent mooring and has found a temporary job which will keep him (heh) afloat while he looks for something better.

I can therefore go into 2024 without the family-related stress and dread that was such a feature of late 2022 and the entirety of 2023.

I shouldn't say things like that because it tempts fate, but as of 1/1/2024 that is the situation. So I can turn my thoughts to 2024 with that ticked off at least.

Goals for 2024

Family-related goals this year

  • Help Daughter/Fiance arrange their wedding.
  • Help Son get the boat re-blacked, water tank stripped and re-painted, bow decoration painted, and engine idle finally fixed

Personal goals

I looked on the internet for 'Fun New Year Resolutions' and could not find any. Apparently you're not supposed to make resolutions to have more fun. You're supposed to be grinding away at exercise and work as though we weren't all already doing the best we could.

I can't make resolutions about health because I am now aware that if your health decides to bork you, there is nothing you can do about it. This will be the first year, I think, where I go into it fully aware of being chronically ill, and how that means that I no longer even have the illusion of control.

So, my goals are going to be small. And they're not going to be resolutions, because I am not resolved to do them if it turns out I can't. They're more like guidelines.

  • Write a new original novel. I've signed up for [profile] gywo to do the 120 days pledge, which means that for at least 120 days of this year I will work on something to do with my new novel.
  • Finish podficcing at least my major Tolkien fanfics
  • Get to the point where I can cycle three times a week and dance twice a week without triggering a flare-up. (I have been cycling three times a week with no trouble for years, and have just about managed to fit in one dance class with only the occasional flare. I have the feeling that increasing to a second dance class a week will require a lot of patience and care. But I think I can get there if I do it gradually enough.)
  • Learn how to cook good vegan food. Now I'm dairy intolerant I have to learn to cook again. As I've always loved Asian food, this is a great excuse to learn to make Thai/Korean/Japanese food myself. It's healthy, it's gorgeous, why wouldn't I? (Also vegan desserts, and - dammit - I want a cheese scone again, even if it's vegan cheese.)
  • Sew all the things
  • Start Roses & Castles painting again
  • Learn something difficult. It may be time for me to try maths again, or coding, or a language. Or playing the melodeon with the bases. Something that does not come to me naturally.

That will do, I think :)

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (narrowboat)

Went to visit Son at his boat yesterday. Fortunately this is not quite the adventure it used to be, now he's in a permanent mooring. Long may that last! But he had unplugged the shore power when he was at ours for the holidays (because rain tends to get in the socket and trip the breaker), and his fridge/freezer had defrosted, indicating that the solar power panels were not working. So we went along for DH to see if he could fix those.

Son had been keeping his rotary washing line on the roof, but there had been high winds while he was away and it was now missing. So the first thing we did was go fishing in the marina with a magnet on a string. Yep, there was the missing washing line, lying invisible in the mud. We got the boat hook around one of the arms and pulled it out, and after a quick wash to get the mud off it was as good as new.

I had hoped to make a start on painting the bow decoration - traditionally sun, crescent moon and diamonds - but it was raining, so that was out.

traditional narrowboat bow design

(An example of the kind of narrowboat bow design we're thinking of. Not Son's boat, unfortunately!)

Instead Son and I applied temporary plastic-film double glazing to all but a couple of windows. (We left a couple untouched for ventilation, since the boat is heated by a woodstove and carbon-monoxide is a concern.)

It's important that the solar panels are delivering charge to the batteries, because Son's mooring is for 11 months a year. For four weeks of the year he has to be out of the marina, and at that point he needs the solar panels to keep the batteries charged so the engine will turn on and he can have lights/charge his phone. So we were keeping an attentive ear out for DH's success in that department.

Fortunately, it turned out that the problem was just a blown fuse which had automatically turned the solar panel box off. Once the fuse was replaced and the switch flicked, DH declared it fixed. Then DH installed a light in the engine room, which had heretofore been a bit of a black hole, and we called it a day and walked into Northampton for KFC.

Not quite the Herculean and heroic efforts of previous excursions, but it is nice to make small (hopefully incremental) improvements and leave the place more functional.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Ember)

Daughter, daughter's fiance, daughter's two cats and Son have left today after staying over from the 23rd. We have had fish and hamsters here before but this is our first experience with cats.

Everyone was a little worried about how the cats would take to coming to a house that was new to them. Ember, the hairless sphynx cat clearly has PTSD about car journeys and spends the journey throwing up in her carrier, and Voidstar is only 1 and had never left Daughter's house before.

But despite the usual throwing up in the car, as soon as Ember got through the door she was visibly delighted to be here and trotted around delicately sniffing everything and climbing up everyone to rub her cheek on yours.

Ember, being bald, is very sensitive to the cold and her favourite thing to do is land on your lap and nose at your jumper until you lift it up and let her come inside, where she will immediately loaf down and go to sleep.

Voidstar went under the sofa and stayed there, but by the next day was happily leaning against everyone's legs and lurking invisibly in doorways and on the stairs (he's as dark as a dark star and you can't see him if he shuts his eyes.)

Daughter tells me he is lying in the entrances of the den in order to defend us, which is very noble of him.

So I spent most of the Christmas period sitting still with Ember either purring or snoring in my lap, and the rest of the family had to bring me cups of tea and slices of Yule Log.

Not a single dodgy present this year :) I got some great trousers with foxes and mushrooms on them, and - having asked everyone for fabric - 13 metres of fabric.

And a new sewing machine! It has a serger function, and zig-zag stitch, so I'll be able to sew stretch fabric for the first time, and it will make my seams much more professional than they have been. I'm going to try it out tomorrow.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (sewing 2)

I tried wearing the coat last night, and was actually very pleased with it. It's warm, and the extra material in the skirts from the two side-triangles means that when I sit down in the coat it does not gape. It just spreads out and continues to cover my knees like a champ.

coat

Pardon DH's messy office behind me. Also I have no idea what that white stripe on the coat is. It wasn't there when I looked down at it. Some artifact of the camera, I think.

I have a nice kilt pin somewhere, which I'll use to close it instead of the morris dancing badge featured here. I'm in two minds about whether to line it with a lining fabric or just put tape over the raw edges, but the material doesn't fray anyway, so I don't necessarily need to do anything.

Also, keep your fingers crossed, but Son is currently getting insurance for fast food delivery, and once that goes through, he may actually have a source of income! Which would be both of my major hopes for this year achieved. (A source of income and a place to live.) It's not a great job, but it's better than nothing.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (What now?!)

So in October I had weird digestive symptoms and had to go get checked for bowel cancer, with the result that I think I've figured out that I have a newly onset case of dairy intolerance. At least once I stopped eating dairy the symptoms went away.

Then I had a horrible cold. I was just getting better from that when I came down with Covid, which lasted a good week. Then although I tested negative for the covid, I remained ill for at least two weeks afterward. Then I started to feel a bit better - enough to go to bellydancing one week. Then this Saturday I came down with a debilitating headache which feels like a migraine even though it fully fills my whole head. Light sensitivity and everything. And that has gone on for over three days now, making me miss another week's dance practice.

I think it's common for me to lose at least a month to illness during the transition from summer to winter (just like it's common for me to feel physically healthier and for all my stuff to clear up in the summer) but it's an enormous pain, and every time I wonder if I'm ever going to get better.

I guess I'll give it another week, and if I still don't feel better after that I'll go to the doctor again. At least I can tell them about the resolution of the digestive issues, which probably needs to go in any health record I might have.

On the plus side, I am occupying my rare moments of mobility and energy by making a Magyar style Rus-Viking coat, which is pretty much exactly the same pattern as my earlier Banyan, except that it has sleeve gussets that should make movement a bit easier.

Rus Coat pattern

I found the pattern in a cupboard I hadn't opened for 15 years and immediately thought 'that would be a lot easier than having to take my measurements and plot it all out by hand.'

The material is black corderoy for the outer layer and black fake fur for the lining. I've wanted a long black coat for years and haven't found one that was both warm and affordable, so I'm going to make it myself. Silver buttons and black silk lacings across the chest, I think :)

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (morning hux)

Ugh! Still exhausted post Covid. I guess it's only around a fortnight since I got it - only a week since I tested negative, and I shouldn't start panicking yet, but I'm still so tired.

I did manage to go to a fireworks display on Saturday with my family, and that was great. Son came down from the boat to join us, and brought his washing to put through Daughter's washing machine and tumble dryer. There are washing facilities in his marina but they cost like £5 a load to wash and the same again to dry.

Anyway the fireworks were great - they were let off from behind a screen of trees, so there was a beautiful silhouette effect where the lights shone out between the branches. Lots of new coloured fireworks this year that I hadn't seen before. Particularly the peach ones with trails of golden sparkles. And they were set very well to the music.

The new dairy intolerance made festival food even more difficult than it normally is for this vegetarian. All the non meat options were of course with cheese. So I ended up with the old reliable portion of chips, but at least that was something.

I have discovered that soy milk is fine, so I can still have a soy milk hot chocolate when I go out. Result :)

Yesterday (Sunday) we did the charity shops in Cambridge and had a choose-your-own-ingredients poke bowl in the Hanaki Cafe. (Avocado, cucumber, edamame, chilli & ginger with sesame shoyu sauce and peanuts scattered on top.) I managed to find a long coat in my size in tartan wool fabric which is very cool - a little bit punk, a little bit eccentric weirdo - and was only £15, so that was also a result.

All that activity was too much for me and today I am flattened again. But I am damn well going to belly dancing this evening even if it kills me (or more likely even if it means I have to spend tomorrow in bed again.) There are only like 4 sessions left before the end of term and I am not missing any of them.

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I was looking at my entry for January 1st 2023 the other day, and saw I had written a list of aims for this year:

With that all in mind, my aims for 2023 are

  1. Help my son get settled.
  2. More practice with the signwriting, possibly starting up a little business doing sign writing and canal art.
  3. Find some form of strengthening exercise that I can do with the hernia.
  4. Finish podficcing Last of our kind and maybe do Derillarch's Jiang Yanli/Jin Guangyao series, and some more favourites after that if I'm still into the Untamed by then.
  5. Maybe start writing again?

Results

I'm more or less happy with how things turned out. I didn't achieve all of that, but we're in a better position than we were before.

  1. Son now has a permanent residence and is therefore able to apply for jobs. AFAIK he doesn't have a job yet, but he's looking, and he's not homeless in the process. (Edit in December - he's now working Deliveroo and can afford food and fuel, so result :) )

  2. As soon as I finished painting the name on the boat, I stopped practicing the signwriting, so no.2 has not materialized at all. However, the main aim of the signwriting - which was putting the name on the boat myself - has been achieved. Any future plans for it have been backburnered, and honestly I don't feel bad about that. It may not have been for me.

  3. As far as exercise goes, this has been the year when I've been forced to ask myself "do I want to morris dance, or do I want to be able to walk and live without constant pain?" and I've chosen to live without constant pain.

    The morris was constantly triggering my fibromyalgia and I was in pain all the time. So, 2023 has been the year when I gave up morris dancing and became a morris musician instead.

    That was very depressing, and even three months ago, if you'd asked me, I'd have said everything was terrible and my life was over.

    However, in September I was like 'there must be some other dance I can do, which isn't as hard on my arthritic knees and doesn't trigger a flare. Maybe something that is good for core strength too?' And belly dancing occurred to me. So I have signed up to belly dance classes, and am really enjoying it. So far an hour of bellydance class is not bothering my knees or activating the chronic illness. I get mildly warm during and mildly sore the next day, and that's ideal. It's giving me a new lease of life and I just wish I could do it more often than once a week.

  4. Finished the named podfics and decided "why don't I podfic some of my own fic?" So now I'm slowly working my way through some of my longest fics. My schedule here has been intermittent to say the least, due to working on the boat, but it's still ongoing and I will get there.

  5. I have started writing again! I am currently writing in The Untamed fandom, and also plotting a Fantasy novel. I can't tell you how relieved I am to have this essential part of my personality back, after years and years of block.

So yeah, not all goals achieved, but positive movement on the most important ones :)

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So I tested -ve this morning. Hurray! I can now go out if I want to. I could conceivably go to the Bonfire Night display in Cambridge on Saturday, except that I still feel exhausted and dizzy and do not fancy it.

Maria from the morris is having a fireworks party of her own on Saturday and I can't say I fancy that either, but I know that DH will go. DH going to every party in existence is probably why he got covid in the first place and brought it home to me. Though honestly, if I'm going to get it anyway, I might as well go to the parties too.

Meh. I'm going to give myself another week to recover and book tickets for the fireworks display in Wilburton instead. Son will have enough notice to come down from Northampton for it, and Daughter & S-i-L have said they're up for it too. Hopefully I'll feel well enough to enjoy it too, that way.

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October in the mean time was mostly taken up with medical stuff. Weird IBS type symptoms arrived out of the blue, and the doctors are like 'take this test.' So I take the test, and the doctors go 'oh, blood. interesting. you may have cancer.' And I'm fast tracked into an endoscopy appointment.

I don't honestly mind the endoscopy, though it's unpleasant and uncomfortable, but the week beforehand where I had to stop eating anything that might have fibre in it, and then I had to stop eating altogether, and then I had to gag down two pints of heavy-metal water that made me dizzy and want to throw up, and go to the bathroom until there was nothing left in my digestive tract at all... I did not enjoy that.

So I go through all of that, and then the morning of the endoscopy appointment DH tests positive for Covid.

I have a lot of sympathy for him, but noooo I can't go through all the fasting and purging again. I phone the hospital and they say that if I am testing negative then it's fine and I can still come. And I am testing negative. So I go and have my colonoscopy, and get Daughter to pick me up so that I can have it under sedation.

Fortunately the colonoscopy detects no cancer, so presumably the IBS stuff is just the Fibromyalgia doing its thing and not something I need to worry about. (Other than maybe testing to see if I've become lactose intolerant.)

Come home, still wiped out from all of that and loopy from sedation, and two days later I also have Covid.

Pretty much that was the last two weeks of October. DH is officially tested Covid -ve as of today, so I'm guessing I'll be clear by Friday, and I'm already starting to panic because I have not even started Christmas shopping.

Time to take my blurry brain and maybe write 500 words of something. If I don't, I will never get back on the horse.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (morris - Sutton Masque)

Lovely evening at the pub tonight. We (the Ely and Littleport Riot morris dancers, along with some strays from the Sutton Masque morris dancers) normally practice on Fridays and then go to the pub afterward, which means we have our musical instruments on us, and frequently we have a sort of mini-session while we're at it. Tonight, a couple who has just moved into the area were around too, and they were so visibly overjoyed and delighted to find a music session going on that it made the whole thing seem more special to us too.

She broke out a whistle and joined in with several of the tunes. He - being a harmonica player - had a go on one of our melodeons and discovered he was a natural on it. Then we cleared some of the tables and chairs out of the way and taught her one of our dances. According to him, she had not seemed so happy for years - and of course this made us all feel excellent too.

Of course we invited them along on any further Friday they might see fit to attend, and hope to see them around again (and maybe to recruit one or both to one or the other of the morris sides involved.) I guess it must be nice, when you have moved to a new area and don't know anyone, to come across a bunch of people playing, singing and dancing, who are eager to socialize with you. But honestly even if you are a bunch of people playing, singing and dancing, it's also really nice to meet new people who think of that as something special. Everyone, I think, had a jolly good time.

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When you have a continual cruising narrowboat license, you can moor up at any spot on the canal for two weeks, but then you have to move on and find a new spot. Son is busy trying to find a new job and having doctors' appointments, having had an operation on his toe, so he has been staying with Daughter in their house. So this meant that the boat had been unoccupied for two weeks, after coming out of the boatyard.

Moving day arrives, and we tool up to move the boat. Everything's good, we find a new mooring with no problem. Son puts back most of the fabrics that had to be taken away because of being moldy. We're all feeling quite accomplished and positive about the boat's new start... and I look in the engine bay and say, "There's a lot of water in here, isn't there?"

Swooping rush of existential dread and despair.

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Found the ugliest vase I've ever seen in the charity shop yesterday. Thought 'omg, that's the ugliest vase I've ever seen.' Then I looked at it again. And then I looked at it again and began to smile.

Then I looked at some dresses, and then I came back and looked at the ugliest vase in the world again, and decided that I absolutely loved it.

I would put daffodils in it, I thought. Daffodils would look great in that pile of elephant's dung.

So since it was only £7, I am now the proud possessor of the ugliest vase in the world, and I have put daffodils in it, and they do look great.

I am immensely pleased with this vase, and now I'm going to show it to you :)

Jolie laide vase

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Fading in and out again like I said I wouldn't. Ah well, I think I have to accept that I live up to my name (which means 'of the sea') and I'm always going to be tidal.

Partially this is because I am now writing and podficcing and trying to fit in signwriting practice, and really this is one creative activity too many in a day. I suspect that if the writing carries on, the podficcing will have to go.

Went down to the boat again on Saturday and accidentally discovered that the bilge pump had been disconnected and there was water in the bilges almost up to the base of the engine. DH managed to get it connected so we could use it on manual, and we pumped the water out, but it still isn't working on auto, so keep your fingers crossed that it doesn't fill up and sink before we can get back to it this Saturday.

On the plus side, Daughter got a cat!

Ember

I didn't think I would like a hairless cat, but I'm smitten. She's called Ember. She's two and had been used for breeding, but was being bullied by the other cats there, so the owner decided she needed to go to a better home.

She's so small and delicate, and very affectionate. She'll climb up to rub her head under your chin and purr all the time. And she does have a slight fuzz, so stroking her is more like petting a cat than like petting warm leather.

galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (narrowboat)

After many engine woes, and despite the fact that Jem at the boatyard still hasn't managed to fix the idle rate so that the boat will tick over in neutral, we went down to Bates Boatyard yesterday to pick up the boat and take it away.

It went into the boatyard in September, to have the hull fixed and blacked, and the sacrificial anodes replaced. They finished doing that in about a fortnight. After which they began on the indoor work. (Making the gas piping legal and safe, fixing the shower, replacing the batteries and installing an inverter that could handle heating water for the shower.)

They did all of that by November, and we were planning to get it back then, and looking for heated sheds we could rent to do the painting. And then - when they were checking the stove to make sure it was not emitting carbon monoxide, they discovered the roof was rusted through where the stove pipe went through. So now the boat had to go back into dry dock to have the roof welded.

At that point I think, they had a look at the engine, which we had noted could not be run in neutral without stalling out. This makes mooring up very difficult. So we had asked them if they could see a way to correct the engine's idle rate. Unfortunately, as they were investigating this, the engine overheated badly, and they realized the boat could not be moved and the engine would need to be stripped to find out the cause of the overheating.

(It turned out that a couple of the pistons had been put in upside down! There was literally nothing on this boat that had been done properly.)

Of course, they hadn't budgeted time for doing engine repairs on top of everything else. So now they were having to fit in trying to repair the engine around the other jobs they had scheduled. And now it was the deepest cold of the year, the boat was frozen in, and it had been there, unheated, unoccupied, for five whole months.

(Of course the pipes burst during that time, and the boatyard had to fix those too.)

Given all that. It really wasn't in that bad a nick when we got it back.

There were some signs that people had been walking around in it in dirty boots. Son had forgotten at any point to empty the toilet, which was now disgusting. (He has a capsule toilet, and we had to lift it out, including contents, and carry it to the car to be brought home to clean.) And a lot of the bedding was moldy.

Fortunately Son had decided not to go straight back to living on board, so we have brought the moldy stuff home to be washed/thrown out as appropriate.

We moved it down a flight of six locks and found a new mooring spot just outside Tring.

  • Slight panic as the engine heated up and started smoking.
  • back to the boatyard to ask about the smoke
  • Jem looks at it and says it's probably just that the insulating wrappings around the exhaust pipe have got wet and are now steaming dry.
  • we all agree that that's what it looks like too.
  • Proceed with journey and are reassured that the smoking stops almost immediately.

The locks are only just open after being out of order over the winter, and we proceed through them in a measured and professional way. (Son at the tiller, Daughter and I manning the windlasses, opening and closing the locks.)

At the final lock a family with two small children, taking a walk along the towpath, come to watch the fun. Daughter and I explain how you have to wind the paddles of the gates up so that the water can come in and fill the lock; how you can only open the gates once the water level in the lock is the same as the water level under the boat.

We attempt to open the lock. It will not shift.

Twilight is falling. The countryside around us is silvery blue. A flight of geese passes overhead in a skirring 'v' formation.

Water is still coming into the lock, but the gates won't open. Daughter and I throw our whole backs and thighs into trying to push it. Onlookers' two children decide to help too and push with all their might while their parents look fondly on.

Eventually the parents join in too and are astonished to feel for themselves that it is just not possible to get these gates to budge.

Finally I think to myself "there's clearly still water coming in, so why isn't the water level equalizing?" and at that point I realize, "maybe it's because the water is going out through the lower gates?" I check the paddles on the lower gates, and sure enough the previous people who came this way have left them half way up.

Daughter and I roll them down, and before I can even get back to the gates, the two young infants have opened it all by themselves.

Major triumph for me and for two small children :)

That's the last lock and we're losing the light, so we moor up. I am feeling good, although exhausted. This is my first day covid -ve and it has involved quite a lot of heavy labour. Fortunately, there's a car park very close, so Daughter gets on Son's bicycle and cycles back down the towpath to fetch her car.

We load the car with moldy bedding and double-bin-bag-wrapped toilet. Then walk across the road and get a really nice, very spicy vegetable chilli and chips from the Angler's Retreat pub, before driving home.

Arrive home at 9.30pm ish with every fibromyalgic inch of my body protesting, feeling accomplished.

Today I can barely stand up, and I have promised to thoroughly wash out and bleach that toilet, but it was still worth it. It is so nice to finally have the boat back!

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It being the day before Candlemas today, I've taken my Christmas decorations down. As we're both suffering from covid, this took the form of 'takes down tinsel, rests for two hours, takes down tree, rests for another two hours, takes ornaments off the tree outside, rests again.'

It's all down and packed up now, but goodness knows how long it will be before we get the boxes upstairs to the attic.

I'm having a little rest atm, but when I can, I'll put the this is not a Christmas tree, it's a spring tree" up.

"this is not a Christmas tree, it's a spring tree"

This, along with a single string of white fairy lights, is my 'something around here has to be bright and beautiful until the flowers come back' mental health resource until it gets light and bright enough outside for me to feel I don't need it.

February is the longest month of the year (we don't usually get even snowdrops til March) and this really helps get through it.

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Went into London on Thursday evening, to stay over in a hotel so we could be dressed and ready for son's Masters Degree graduation at 9.45 on Friday morning. Son and daughter met us at the hotel and we had a nice evening just chatting at the bar.

Even with the hotel we had to get up pretty early in order to get to the Royal Festival Hall via Docklands Light Railway and the Jubilee line.

Son, who has just had an operation on his foot, was in a medical shoe most of the day, but swapped it out for a normal shoe to cross the stage and get his photos taken.

Graduation ceremonies have become a lot less cold and formal since I had mine. There were people in the audience cheering as their graduate crossed the stage, and graduates doing little dances before they got their formal handshake/bow. It was a change I approve of, I think. We ought to be able to enjoy our triumphs, I think, instead of making even our celebrations feel like an ordeal.

There was still an awful lot of clapping to be done!

Nice speeches and a very warm atmosphere. And of course we(me, DH, daughter) were all extremely proud of him.

Reed in cap and gown

Then we went to Kintan (Japanese barbeque restaurant on Oxford Square) for lunch - which is a great option for the three meat eaters, and does spicy vegetable noodles and barbeque-your-own halloumi for the vegetarians :)

After which we caught the new Elizabeth line back to the DLR, mainly so we could check out London's newest tube line (very like all the other tube lines except cleaner and roomier.) And thus back to the cars and back home.

Then it was Saturday, and DH got up and got dressed for the Mark Jones Day of Dance and then half way through tying string round his knees he said "You know, I don't actually feel very well."

He was testing negative only the day before, and I was testing negative until yesterday, but he got the red line on Saturday, and I got it today, and to cut a long story short, we are now both grounded with Covid.

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I bought the plaid and made the dungarees from it! Lined in dark green lining material. The fleece material for the other ones had cost £6 a metre, and the plaid flannel for these cost £4m with the lining material at £2m. So as I had figured out I needed less material than I thought last time, they turned out cheaper. (Just over £12, as I bought the shoulder straps instead of making them.)



I love them and I wore them for the traditional Christmas Eve mummer's play (in which I played The Fool.) A woman actually stopped me as I was going out the door to say that she liked them. So that's a big success :)

However, while the dungarees are great, it's still a bit boring to be wearing nothing but dungarees all winter. So thanks to some of the links [personal profile] ysabetwordsmith showed me, I'm attempting to edge into lagenlook territory.

I had initially misunderstood, because in the UK when you say 'lagenlook' you usually mean the clothing line, 'Lagenlook'. https://lagenlookclothinguk.co.uk/ And while I do like their stuff, I can't really afford to get a whole wardrobe from there.

But having read the links, I have finally realized that it's not a fashion brand, it's a way of dressing with whatever you have on hand.

I have this hernia that means that pressure around my mid section is not a good idea, which means that following the Blue Fish guidelines of starting with pants and a tank is not on. But that doesn't mean I can't achieve winter warmth with long dresses and long socks. So I've dug out my summer dresses and the longest of my sweaters and I'm now experimenting with wearing them in layers on top of each other.

I've always admired that many layered Earth Mother look when I've seen other people wearing it, so while I'm not hugely happy about the hernia, I am glad to have been positively forced to take up a style I'd only been avoiding because I thought it cost too much. If I can manage a budget version of my own, I think I'll call that a plus.
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I've just subscribed to

Snowflake Challenge promotional banner with image of mug of hot chocolate with marshmallows and gingerbread cookies. Text: Snowflake Challenge January 1-31.

which looks very gentle and possibly like something I might be able to keep up with even if it takes me more than the requisite month.

Speaking of snowflakes, it has been below freezing here for the past four days, and I have been contending with the fact that I have no pairs of winter trousers that do not require a tight belt to keep them up.

Normally this wouldn't be a problem, but this summer I discovered that I had a sliding hernia (where there's a hole in your diaphragm and sometimes your stomach gets pushed up to bulge through the hole, stomach acid and all.) One of the big culprits in this is being tightly cinched in around the waist. So I changed into wearing dresses and promptly forgot about the winter.

Winter arrives, I dig out my winter trousers and wear them for a while, only to find that I'm suffering from heartburn/fatigue and pain in the chest. It finally dawns on me last week that this is the result of going back to being strangled around the waist. So I dig out my one pair of dungarees, and then it gets really cold.

What to do? It's nearly Christmas and if I order another pair on line they might not arrive for a fortnight. Plus they're £60 a pair! And they're not even that warm.

Time to bring out the sewing machine! I cycled to the local fabric shop and examined their selection. Brushed cotton looked warm but almost certainly wouldn't be. I couldn't afford wool, and it would be scratchy anyway. The fleece was all primary colours, camouflage pattern or ladybird print.

Hm, it was time to adhere to the spirit of "When I am old, I will wear purple," and throw social convention out of the window. So I bought the ladybird print fleece and made myself an emergency pair of warm dungarees.



They came in very handy when my family and I went out to do the Wimpole Christmas Lights trail last night. With ski boots and a ski coat, I was perfectly warm and my legs were toasty out in the snow for three hours.

We had pizza and hot chocolate from a food van, then did half the walk, past the tree halos and fire garden. In the middle there were braziers set up and marshmallows for sale for toasting - I had a chocolate one :) Then through the lazers and the fields of shining white roses to the end of the trail, where there was a helter-skelter and a carousel.

It was a really lovely evening. The ladybird print dungarees received a mixed reception. One lady told me what a good idea it was to have come in my pajamas, but a chance-met friend was like "Ooh, I love your dungarees, where did you get them?" And I will take my friends' opinions over strangers any day :)
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Woohoo! Successfully renamed my journal Galadhir, which is what I used to be called on Livejournal, back when I was writing Tolkien fanfic. I really am returning to my roots :)

(Wulfwaru was a good name, but had no fandom history behind it. Galadhir, otoh, people might actually remember.)

I owe people replies, I know! But it's been a long and hectic day so I will get round to it tomorrow, sorry :)
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)
Back in March I posted about how I had decided to go on the Fuck It Diet in an attempt to find out what would happen if I stopped yo-yo dieting.

I've been on and off diets since I was 25, and I've varied between a size 12 (US 8) at my smallest and 22 (18)at my biggest. I have been plagued all that time with the belief that I had no upper limit. I thought that if I stopped dieting I would simply get larger and larger until I could not move.

I knew from all those years of dieting that I had a lower weight limit - a weight below which I could only force myself with great effort. And - if I did make it below that weight - my health would go haywire, and I would find myself uncontrollably eating chocolate biscuits all day long.

But I discovered various sources from Health At Any Size to Intuitive Eating that claimed that everyone had an upper weight limit too. These sources claimed that if you simply ate only when you were hungry and stopped when you were full, your weight would normalize within a weight range defined by your upper and lower weight set points.

As I was convinced by the research that said that dieting was bad for you, and as I had begun to develop symptoms of binge-eating disorder, this sounded (a) too good to believe, and (b) like something I should try nevertheless.

So, yeah, back in March I came off the Slimming World Diet and began to eat whatever I wanted whenever I felt hungry. I retired my scales, so I don't know how much weight I put on, but I went up from being a size 14 to being a size 20. This was unsurprising but very depressing and made me extremely anxious and sad.

Still, the books said that during the refeeding process (when your body was being convinced there was no famine any more) you would go right up to the top of your weight range first. But crucially - if you kept your nerve and didn't diet - you would then go back down a little before you settled somewhere in the middle of your range. So I persisted.

Amazingly enough, I did then begin to go back down. My belt got looser by a good two inches. I found that I fitted better into a size 18 than the 22 I had been eyeing with regret a month before. And now I have indeed settled somewhere around the size 18 that I was when I started dieting at age 25.

I've got to consider that a huge triumph, and relief. So yeah. I can say from personal experience that the HAES, Fuck It Diet people are right. If you eat when you're hungry and stop when you're full, you do stabilize around a weight somewhere in the middle of your range. And it will be fatter than you hope, but not as fat as you fear.
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)
Today I feel as though I’m making some sort of progress on the ‘novice gardener attempts to plant food forest’ front.

This morning I went out and picked myself a pot of tea. I took a few flowering heads of lavender, two peppermint leaves and two lemon-balm leaves, put them in one of those individual tea-pots that comes with a cup and had three cups of tea out of it. Very fragrant and lovely it was too!


It hadn’t occurred to me that I could grow my own tea before reading Martin Crawford’s Creating a Forest Garden about a month ago. But I had space for more plants, so as soon as I did, I ordered a chocolate mint and an anise hyssop plant. And on Monday I was in town at the bulk buy shop and discovered a very bedraggled, unhappy lemon balm plant in their ‘please take these away because they’re dying’ bin, so I brought that home in my bike pannier too.

The lavender and the peppermint were already in place.

Having tried for a couple of days now, I discover that there is something very special about being able to start the day by picking your own tea blend from the garden. It’s a revelation almost on a par with how much difference fresh herbs make to the taste of your cooking. They give much more satisfaction and pleasure than it seems like they ought to.

Other successes–there are slugs in the slug trap. The little bastards have been chomping their way through three quarters of the tender baby plants I put in. I fully intend to let thrushes and toads deal with them later on when things are established, but for now I have neither of those things, so drowning in beer it is.

I had a bit of a paradigm shifting moment as regards the lawn this time last month. I had very much been of the 'lawns are a waste of space’ persuasion previously. But we have one. We may not always have one, but while we have one, it finally occurred to me to treat it as an area of soil covered with a ground covering plant.

Namely–not as a waste of space, but as an area of soil that also needed its soil carbon levels building up via nurturing and encouraging the soil lifeforms.

So, two weeks ago, I raised the cutting height on the lawnmower to 6.5 cm and put on it one of those plug in things that cuts up the grass cuttings and scatters them on the lawn behind you. I’m no longer removing the nutrients from the soil by taking the cuttings away to go in the compost bin–I’m letting them accumulate and feed the soil.

I also scattered some chicken manure over the whole garden, and watered it in with some powdered mycorrhizal fungi in solution. If I’m improving the soil, it doesn’t really matter so much what’s growing on top of it, right? It’s still drawing down carbon dioxide and breathing out oxygen like a tree.

And I’ve got to say, two weeks and two cuts later it’s noticeably thicker and lusher. It’s still full of wild flowers and weeds, of course, but that’s a bonus imo–I have a prairie.

I also have clouds, absolute effing hoards of hoverflies, bumblebees and ladybirds. I like to think it’s a sign that the biodiversity is improving. As is the fact that there’s a frog in the pond, and that five of the golden-rod sticks, two of the skirret sticks, and one of the perennial kale sticks seem to have taken and sprouted.
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)
the flowering border of a cycle path, full of yellow, purple, white and red flowers

The cycle path is absolutely radiant with wild flowers atm. So much better than the old days when the council mowed the verges until they looked like lawns.

The photo is not really great, but there's the yellow flowers who's name I don't know, and white dead-nettle, and white cow parsley, and red poppies and purple teasles and purple thistles. Earlier in the season there was purple dead-nettle and blue bugle and orange fox-and-cubs. Hard to believe we ever thought it was a good idea to cut it all down because lawn was neater.
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (Default)
Time for some new spring time masks!



Probably not the fabric I'd have chosen for myself, but rather than let anyone inside the shop to browse the fabric choices for themselves, the fabric shop has put a table in the doorway to stop you coming in. You have to ask the assistant to choose the fabric for you. I asked for spring material and she came back with a selection of four rolls of which I quite liked these two.

I know they have many much nicer choices which I could have found if I'd insisted on her going back and trying again, but these weren't so terrible that I felt like sending her traipsing back and forth to find something better.

It's very odd to roll up at the haberdashery shop and place an order at the window for two fat quarters of spring material, a metre of black felt and a metre of velcro, but it makes a lot of sense and keeps everyone safer, so I'm all for it.

Sock Fox

Mar. 20th, 2021 03:17 pm
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (daniel's eyebrows)
In a fit of "I haven't been able to dance for over a year and I'm so bored," I went on Etsy and searched for craft kits. I was looking for something I could do in the evenings, when I was tired and stupid, so it needed to be easy.

I found this:

A Sock Fox craft kit - a paper bag with a picture of a jaunty fox, and a striped stuffed animal in front of it.

And I thought that was pretty cute. Plus, I happen to have several pairs of socks with holes in the toes. I do darn them, but I was not going to pass up the chance to get a pattern with which I could make a cute fox out of a pair, AND a bonus pair of un-holey socks for me to wear.

So I bought the kit, wore the lovely red-orange-yellow striped socks, and made the pattern out of a pair of differently-striped socks that I didn't want to darn.

So here is my Arctic fox.

A white, pink and blue striped soft toy fox with button eyes and a green ribbon around its neck.

He needs a name, but naming is not one of my areas of expertise.
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (morning hux)
So, there seem to be two different vaccination schemes going on at once in the UK. The national NHS one, and a more local one run by the specific doctor's surgeries. On Tuesday last week, I got an appointment from the NHS one to go and be vaccinated on Thursday 18th, which I was delighted about. But then, on Saturday, I got a text from my doctor saying "You can book a vaccination spot tomorrow." Not only that, but DH, who is three years younger - and therefore in a different tier - could book one too, so we could go in together, meaning whoever was least ill on the way back could drive the car.

Naturally I cancelled the one on the 18th and we went yesterday. His appointment was 40 minutes after mine, but they were doing a first come first served queue, so we went through only seconds apart.

This was the AstraZeneca one. The jab was so quick and so painless that I spent half of last night fretting about whether it had actually happened at all. (I saw her take the syringe out and felt the needle touch my skin, but didn't feel it go in.)

I now understand exactly why 18th Century doctors added asfoetida to their medicine to make it taste extra horrible. I would have preferred it if the injection site had been sore, because then I would have definitely known I had had an injection, and wouldn't have been paranoid about being some kind of guinea pig for some unannounced placebo scheme. (I was very anxious to get this vaccination, I think you can tell.)

Anyway. Zero side effects last night. The arm barely stung if I lay on it in bed. But this morning I've woken up feeling exhausted, headachy, weepy and shivery. So I'm somewhat reassured that it did happen after all.

The expected feeling of relief at now being much less likely to die of Covid has not hit me yet, but I expect it the moment I stop feeling so generally grotty.

Etiquette?

Mar. 9th, 2021 09:07 pm
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (phasma)
Is it okay to just slide into a complete stranger's DW over here and comment on their latest post as if you've known them for years? Or would a "hello, I hope you don't mind that I subscribed to you, I saw that we shared an interest in [whatever]" need to come first?

Vaccination

Mar. 9th, 2021 04:18 pm
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (buzzcut)
Woohoo! Guess who got their first appointment for their first covid vaccination! Thursday next week I get my first dose, and the second dose on June 3rd.

It won't change any of my behaviour, but it will make me feel a lot better. Fingers crossed I don't catch it in the mean time, considering I will need to buy groceries some time this week.
galadhir: a blue octopus sits in a golden armchair reading a black backed novel (buzzcut)
Thanks, everyone, for reconnecting with me over here :) I strongly suggest using this as an opportunity to get rid of my Potboy account over here which has become nothing more than Tumblr spam. I literally don't even remember the name of the program I used to mirror my Tumblr to here, and without that I can't google for how to shut it down.

Someone mentioned, last night, that Livejournal was still around, so I went back to see what had become of it and was overwhelmed with nostalgia for a more innocent time.

Initially I was like 'why don't I just go back to LJ? I liked it there!' So I made a new LJ, but the moment I started uploading icons, I realized I was wondering if it was safe to upload icons with the queer flags, and that reminded me why I'd left in the first place.

So I thought I'd come here and see if I could get back into the habit of more longform posting again. Social media is becoming a nightmare corporate environment where everyone's outraged all the time. It seemed like a good idea to return to something (a) made by fans and (b) much lower pressure. It's extremely encouraging to know that you're all active enough here to have at least noticed the notification that I'd subscribed to you in this new form.

*Hugs*

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